Federica wrote: ↑Mon Apr 20, 2026 1:57 pm Yes I've developed some leeway, but I can't activate it other than in purposeful meditative prayerful intent. I guess age is also a factor. When I was younger I could find myself more casually 'in the clouds'. Feeling the gesture of the rushing mind is not a concept, but a real experience, though. Especially after an unpleasant dream, when the waking up conditions are not exactly peaceful. Even better, on the first day waking up elsewhere than at home. Then the sensory feedback doesn't square and it's easy to feel the astral rush to map out the unfamiliar environment. I don't feel I could resist that anxious rush, but perhaps in the future. I guess the soul is much quicker to flow in than the ego and its voluntary attempts. By the time I can deliberate anything, the soul has already taken charge.
Right, these are good points. My sleeping rhythm has always been somewhat disturbed and unpleasant, in a way, at least as long as I can remember. It has never been a super peaceful experience for me. That is perhaps a factor in why it is easier to sense the liminal state and the rushing experience upon repeated awakenings. As you say, resisting the rushing experience is extremely difficult precisely because the ego is not fully present with its motive force and clear-cut concepts that anchor our intentions. In an interesting way, we seek to experience our navigation without the meditation of such clear-cut conceptual movements, but the lack of the latter also makes it difficult to sustain this experience, since it leaves us at the mercy of instinctive soul movements. That catch-22 can only be remedied through our prayerful-meditative sessions, in which we both intensify the conceptual movements and make them more adaptable to 'fluid' circumstances. Then the ego can accompany our soul body into these liminal states without also interfering with and collapsing their experience into sequential perceptions-thoughts, providing a basis for voluntary navigation of their curvatures.
