Philosophical Speculations

Surely pertinent to how psychedelics can have a meaningful impact on one's life ...

Yes, I ran my own Ayahuasca ceremony. As per Bernado's comments in the recent interview with Kurt, I went through an inner hell in every conceivable interpretation, before I experienced complete dissolution of my ego and entered into a oneness that is quite ineffable. For weeks after the event I lucid dreamed and astral travelled at seeming will, and the profound change on the inside felt real and most comforting = no more fear of death. My understanding has become that all life is mind, and I feel psychedelics are a great portal to this i.e. Idealism can be accessed through psychedelics. Not surrender in the sense of authority, but in terms of a merging where ego, hubris and even ownership of any knowledge is utterly absent. The outer integration of this inner change was, on the other hand, a failure, for since then my marriage, relationship with my children, and even relationship with all the materialism I once keenly embraced, has dissolved. I'm no longer sad so much as curious as to its' teleological meaning. I held the ceremony nine years ago, and just discovered Bernado's work last week. He feels important and so I explore more.