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Cleric K wrote: ↑Wed Mar 24, 2021 10:32 am
Well... what can I say. Suddenly all talks about nonduality, it's all one consciousness, the one mind at large, etc., etc. all turn out to be nothing but empty words. The whole talk about the (non-)existence of a self turned out to be a game of words. When things truly approach the crux of the matter, somehow everyone becomes surprisingly individual-bubble-preserving. Everyone has their own justifications. Yet if we really look without prejudice at things, we find the bottom line is always to preserve the inviolability of the personal bubble. "Theoretically" all bubbles are part of the one consciousness but as soon as we approach the
real, fully conscious experience of this oneness, the bubbles shudder and close themselves even tighter, as clams. One would much better believe that this real experience of oneness is an illusion because it's considered that the one consciousness is actually unconscious and blindly-instinctive on large scale. Or if the one consciousness is admitted to be conscious it is considered so alien and unbridgeable that for all practical purposes the intellectual self remains fully isolated from it (at least until death). This gives comfort to the bubble. Anything is acceptable as long as it keeps the bubble intact.
As I always say, it's not my desire to disturb the comfort of anyone but when there are groundless attack against some truths, the least thing that can be done is to present the balancing facts. The smallest thing that anyone can do is to investigate unbiasedly his inner world and ask "Are there any bubble boundaries? Could there really be any separation between my inner conscious space and those of others
unless I imagine this separation through my own thinking? Do I really perceive such separation in the given? Or I add it myself because it suits the way I feel about everything that is not me?"
Let's take this seriously, and study these phenomena of projections and surfaces in a non-judgemental way. Bubble is a day-light phenomenon, matter of visual sense. The everyday meditation of attending enlightened sense bubbles, together with surfaces of touch and sound. Some perspective, and/or gradations of perspectives is involved, and the surfaces of sound and touch are not walls of separation, but how, where and when these sensations happen. They surfaces of sound and touch have their local aspect, which we could call "region", using different word than the bubble aspect of visual daylight meditation in sunlight and other sources of light. We can see light reflecting from our skin, which to sight appears as a kind of bubble, but sensations of hot and cold in various degrees are felt
inside a local region, a surface functions as a medium instead of reflection.
As sight has it's own kind of local perspective, we imagine various perspectives to non-visible dark regions of touch and feel, very often some kind of internality inside the dark regions of sound, smell and taste, touch and feel. Giving thought to these relations, there seems to be some kind of force combining various sensations into more or less coherent whole. Maybe the force is what is called 'self-narration', as attention is moving and giving various senses various degrees of attention. As this inquiry and self-narration is now becoming written, attending and perspectives are closely related, but different meditations in their unique ways.
I can't see Cleric etc. daylight, from this perspective imagining and feeling Cleric happens in a dark region. Imagining a visual shape is at best very blurry guesswork with minds eye projecting something vague into a sea of darkness beyond this bubble of daylight. Attention is more directed to reading dark regions of emotions and moods in the medium of languages. Various languages narrate and frame these regions in their different ways.
Pain is located in the various regions of emotion and mood, touch and feel. The actual pain. Memory and caution of pain in various self-narrations. Fear of pain is in the dark regions, and so are most intense sensations of pleasure and all variety between. How we speak of dark and light is often very metaphorical and symbolic, and not allways very coherent with actual sentience. In the dark region of thought, other dark regions as well as the light that imagines geometric forms etc. also in absence of daylight, mix and mingle in very complex ways.
Word 'consciousness' is used in different ways, most closely it seems to be associated with the the light that is able to imagine and mingle with various dark regions. In my language the maxim 'gnothi seauton' is translated:
Tunne itsesi.. Translating from Finnish to English, the maxim reads:
Feel thyself, instead of the standard English interpretation of Greek term gnosis, "know thyself". Following this translation, in this philosophical investigation we could perhaps take light of consciousness and dark of feel could as equally fundamental aspects of
awareness. Coherence of sentience and sapience is another way to express same thought.
In this meditation, dark aspects of feel and sentience can be experienced as well as imagined as continuities. Various perspectives of self-narration processes, such as pain moderation, can mingle with light of imagination and form various forms and degrees of regional and local filters that can increase and decrease the continuous dark relations and flows, as well as solidify some of them to reflecting surfaces of various perspectives. In the continuous processes of self-narration, these dark filters and reflecting surfaces can become mechanized and automated functions, which do their work in the subconscious regions. They are also intergenerational, evolutionary and archetypal deep structures, which consciousness tends to perceive and study symbolically, as the functionality these of these subconscious mechanisms in the dark regions is being constantly revalued and reformed. This holistic process of self-narration seeks to avoid repeating same hurtful mistakes too much, while not to stay captivated by mechanized processes too much.
Dissolving empathy filters and barriers in the dark is a very care-full process, can never be complete in any costume of the spirit, and we can't promise that the process of dissolving and downgrading them doesn't hurt. Even symbolically reliving a traumatic experience can hurt for a short duration, for a longer gain. Various spiritual practices and traditions have been developed to sooth and help the process, they are all self-healing on the ontological level of empathy. Also each local region and it's perspective has power of self-healing, both building and removing spiritual scar tissue.
Many times "mind bubbles" are formed in our collaborative investigations as first tentative care-full touches with some structures in the dark regions of feel and sentience, questioning whether the energy stored in them is becoming ready to release.