Federica wrote: ↑Tue Apr 09, 2024 11:40 am In response to these illnesses-accidents that are not directly generated by inner habits, but enter our reality from outside, so to say, we should maybe venture into less proximate layers of being, as if maintaining a large front of intents, where we aspire to become ‘polymaths’ of the fight against evil forces, I dare to say. Whilst we counter the first type by precise intervention through the most free tool we have at our disposal, and we recreate our world, day after day, from that edge, we have to deal with the latter type by surfing the interfering field of karmic possibilities, trying to develop a sensitivity for the accidents we are able to escape - since they were lingering within a window of karmic indeterminateness, at the frontier of what we have the power to ‘change’ in our becoming, taken from its material side first. I am not sure if I am making myself understood, but I feel we should equally apply the trial and error process to both edges of our becoming, inner and outer, to develop an all-front, all-round awareness, and do all in our power not to be taken aback by the encircling forces of darkness.
Federica, don't you get exhausted just thinking about doing the above?
I often get exhausted just working on the proximate soul constraints, feeling like I am chipping around the very surface of the inner edge but hardly making any progress, frequently relapsing into old unhealthy patterns. Now if we split our 'army' and extend this 'battle' to the outer edge as well, our spirit is stretched very thin and is made much more vulnerable on both fronts. That is how I think about it at my current stage of inner development, when the 'interfering field of karmic possibilities' is not at all transparent to my intuitive consciousness.
And then along the lines of Cleric's response, the illnesses-accidents that stream from the outer edge of karmic history or karmic potential are not simple to identify and assess. We can easily start projecting our intellectual assessments into this black box of karmic destiny so as to justify some unexamined desire or another. Perhaps we want to see some illness or injury as karmically deserved while another as a chance happening that works into a future adjustment. That is another reason why the inner edge, where our intuitive insight and capacity for creative management is stronger, should take primary importance, so we know more intimately what inner impulses are steering our thinking in relation to the varied sensory events.